it always was, and still is christmas...and even tho i've gotten past the thought that i have to give everyone and their mother some sort of gift, i just enjoy the tree lit up, some soft christmas music playing, and the one i love in my arms. it's never been about the gifts for me, it's just about the friends i have that i consider my family. oh, and i like to watch the b & w version of "A Christmas Carol, " it brings back a lot of memories....sighhh